Sam is losing his hair – not all his hair, but a good portion of it, so now he looks somewhat bald. There are so many conflicting thoughts and emotions I have with the hair loss. Sam thinks its hilarious – he laughed as he pulled out his hair in clumps, singing a made up song about his hair falling out. I watched him and laughed too – and felt like crying at the same time. Hair loss is such a visual reminder of cancer. For most of this time, Sam has kept his hair and usually looked like a healthy boy. Now his cancer is so much more obvious. And yet…not completely. He still has his eyebrows, eyelashes and a thin covering of hair.
In a weird way, however, I like it – partly because he now legitimately looks the part, and I somewhat like looking at his bald head. I think it looks cool and interesting. We stayed home from church and school this week because his immunity is quite low, and I was rather disappointed. In a wacky way I wanted to show off my bald-headed boy!